In just a few days my marvelous Emily will be 20 years old!
I think many mothers become nostalgic around the birthdays of their children and I admit to shedding a tear when I looked at the photographs from so many years ago. She is now off at university and leaping into and loving her life there, so actually I am happy and wouldn't change a thing!
The early spring when I was awaiting her birth seems such a long time ago now. I remember how strange it was to be part of a natural cycle that is so very normal and ordinary but to me so earth-shatteringly amazing and life changing.
I think many mothers become nostalgic around the birthdays of their children and I admit to shedding a tear when I looked at the photographs from so many years ago. She is now off at university and leaping into and loving her life there, so actually I am happy and wouldn't change a thing!
The early spring when I was awaiting her birth seems such a long time ago now. I remember how strange it was to be part of a natural cycle that is so very normal and ordinary but to me so earth-shatteringly amazing and life changing.
Last days before the Beginning
I am fat and tight as a lilac bud.
I am waiting, still and quiet as a bulb in the dark earth.
Soon Spring will be here, pushing, bursting and blossoming.
As for now, I like to watch for the early flowers
The slim, frail snowdrops give me courage
that I too will be brave and bring forth my burden.
It's hard to imagine a new life inside me
but as the poet says-
" Nothing is certain, only the certain Spring".
Happy Birthday my dearest girl.
